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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 30, 2008 0:52:45 GMT -4
Jacob decided to role with it. He was lost in the moment and probably would try to take things further. He kissed her passionately sticking his tongue in her mouth, fighting for control. He wanted her, all of her for himself and he wanted to give himself to her, lay it all on the line as a last moment effort ot win her over for good. Stop her from this terrible fate she was choosing and only rest in his arms.
He warmed her like the sun. Edward couldnt do that, and it was something bella wanted, he could feel it. He began to tug at her shirt wanting to go to the next level, he figured shed stop him, but he decided to go for it anyways.
He continued to keep there lips connected not wanting to let her go, not wantig to lose her again, he felt letting go of this kiss would be rather painfl.
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Post by Isabella Swan on Mar 30, 2008 1:01:19 GMT -4
Bella felt her body begin to warm up all over. From her head to her toes, she was completely warm. And she wasn't sure if it was the temperature between their bodies that was rising or if it was his hands that had now found their way to her shirt.
Either way Bella saw it as a good thing. Bell did break apart however. She didn't want to stop kissing him but she knew hat they couldn't do that here. And she was saving herself for after Edward and her's wedding. She had to. Otherwise she'd never forgive herself.
With her breathing heavy, Bella kept her eyes closed. "Jake....I'm sorry but we can't go that far. I love you, and you know that. But, I sort of had an agreement with Edward. And I'd be betraying him more so then I already am." Bella spoke in a whisper and kissed him again for a couple of pecks. Then she just paused, as if she was listening for something.
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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 30, 2008 10:30:13 GMT -4
Jacob felt her pull away and he knew this would be his let down. "Bella, you're betraying me remember? He's got you for eternity, can't I have you for a moment!" he said hurt by what she was doing, it never failed to hurt him. It was like a spear piercing his body over and over, unable to escape the pain. He was tied down by his loyalty to her and ripped apart by her love. How coudl she do this. Well he understood why she did this, but how? He loved her and she loved him, she had said that, but did she really mean it?
He sighed a surrendering sigh, "fine, I'll behave, you can tie my hands behind my back if you want to so only our lips will touch" he said "whatever you want Bella." he said "I only want what you want, well no I take that back I only want what you want if it has to do with me being you" he said with a beautiful smile. Despite being twice her size and height, he was a beautiful creature, graceful...not really, rough aroudn the edges, but he always sensed she liked that balance, it made her feel less clumsyas opposed to the glass figurine she seem to love more, Edward. He never understood why she could love a cold stone.
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Post by Isabella Swan on Mar 30, 2008 10:49:58 GMT -4
"I'm sorry Jacob. I know you want more. But I just can't give it to you." She spoke with a sinking feeling in her stomach. Ugh! How could those boys do this to her?She was in love with both of them! Edward more so but that was besides the point! Bella hated the way she was treating Jacob. As if she was using him. And when she was done she'd go running back to Edward. It wasn't like that!
Bella sighed and for a moment leaned her head against Jake's strong chest. The touch immediately warmed up her face. She had a feeling; that these two weeks, were going to be the longest, and most hurtful/exciting weeks of her human life. And she still; had no idea that Edward had invited Jacob to the wedding. That was going to be the event of the century.
Bella looked up at him and grabbed Jake's hands, then she placed them on her waist and even moved one up her back a little. "Please don't let this be in your memory, what I'm about to do. Alice is already going to murder me and I'm sure Edward is reading your mind." She spoke to him and slid his hand down to her thigh. She was going to let him have his moment without going to far. And without revealing any clothes.
"I beg you not to let this be in your memory." She smiled at him and leaned up to kiss his neck gently. Then she dropped her head and wanted to scream. And she was suddenly wishing the competition over her was just Edward and Mike again. That would've been so much easier to go through. But no, Jake had to go and love her too. And she had to go and love him. but, by no means did she long to be with him for eternity. She didn't mean that in a harsh way but she meant it as she loved Edward more.
This is just for memory's sake! Bella; you're only doing this to keep Jacob in your memory when you become a vampire. So you don't kill him! That's what her thoughts were trying to get her to believe. And that's what she wanted anyways.
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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 30, 2008 11:03:44 GMT -4
Jacob looked at her with hurt eyes. But he'd carried that pain for a while. His pack and the people around him had noticed it a lot and even Sam spoke with him about it. Sam's words ran through Jake's head: "The more you think about it, the more it will eat you up inside. It'll eventually destroy you Jake, don't let this destroy you." the last bit ran through his head over and over. But she was like a drug he couldn't quit much like he had described Edward to her in the past. Edward was Bella's drug.
He felt her small figure touch his massive body and he wrapped his arms around her keeping her safe and warm. He kissed the top of her head and rested his head on top of hers. "Bella I love you too much to let you go" he said to her. "But if I have to, if I have to make that sacrifice I'm entitled to somewhat of a moment" he said.
When she seemed to finalyl comply he knew it took a lot of her to do this. "I'll be a vegetable in the head" he said complying with her request to not think about it. It'd be hard though. Very hard. But he felt her take his handand place it all over her body. He immediately set himself off going as far as he could without breaking her demands. He wrapped his arms around her and lifted her up so she could wrap her legs around his waist as they kissed once more. He wanted her, but knew he'd have to limit himself. He couldnt think about it either. But how could he not! This would be his final moment possibly, his last attempt at winning her back.
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Post by Isabella Swan on Mar 30, 2008 11:17:50 GMT -4
"Jake I can't say sorry enough for the way I'm treating you. It's unfair and should be punishable by the court of law." Bella spoke and felt him place his head on hers. Her eyes closed for a second when his lips touched her forehead and her heart sunk even furrther to her stomach. He loved her too much to let her go...
"I know. Please forgive me for leaving you later."
A small gasp escaped her lips as she felt him lift her up. And she immediately placed her legs around his waist to make it easier for him to hold her. "Jake.." She spoke in almost moan as she placed her arms around his neck. And ever so slightly she began to kiss him back. She had to tell Edward her reason for doing this. Then maybe he'd understand. As long as she didn't keep doing this.
Bella let her hands raise into his hair and she found herself smiling. And she didn't realize; that this was Jake's one moment to completely win her back. Though she had already chosen the one she loved in her head.
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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 30, 2008 11:27:34 GMT -4
He began to go wild, his animal instincts kicking in of course. He even growled a little and laugh at himself for doing so. He began to kiss her neck hoping to here a moan or some sort of surrender to his touch, but he wouldn't be surprised if she didn't he almost thought about stopping because he knew she was not fully into this moment. But he thought maybe if he tried hard enough he could bring her in full swing.
His arms supported her with ease, she was like a feather in his hand. He began to massage her back with his hands slowly. How he longed to touch her skin. But he stopped his thoughts, trying so hard to keep his promise. He didn't want to but she was willing to do this for him, so why not do that for her.
Jacob knew he'd be in for it if Edward found out. Edward would never be angry at his future bride, and if he was, well Jake would take care of the bloodsucker. He only wanted her to be in the best of care, and as long as he knew Edward would do that, it eased the sense of worry from him. But it would never ease the pain.
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Post by Isabella Swan on Mar 30, 2008 11:36:10 GMT -4
Bella moaned. What could she say? He like Edward had found her weak spot. Her neck. And she had no idea why either. But, it was and it always would be. Everytime someone kissed her there.
She felt his hands begin to massage her back. And she began to slowly cave in. And finally she let herself completely relax against him. As if they did this all the time. Which she knew Jake wouldn't mind doing but she couldn't do that. It would hurt Jacob already more then it was if they did.
Needing to breath Bella pulled back and rested her forehead against his. "You know this is only making it harder for you right? And if Edward finds out you'll get it." She said softly while trying to catch her breath. Her own fingers running through his hair. Then slowly, ever so slowly she grabbed one of his hands and slid it down so it was beneath the hem of her shirt. As if letting him know all he could do was touch; but not too much.
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Post by Jacob Black on Mar 30, 2008 11:54:26 GMT -4
He heard her moan and it felt like a small victory for him. He made hsi way up to her lips and kissed her passionately. He let her rest against his forehead when she caught her breath. "I don't care, I'd rather be in pain the rest of my life than not experience this moment with you" he said to her softly.
He pulled back "What makes you think Edward would take me and not the other way around. He may be smart and able to read my mind but if he were to slip for a mili-second his done for Bella, I hate to show you the chink in his armor but it's there. It's there in all supernatural creatures, we all have our strengths but also our weaknesses." he said to her. "Just like you do, and you will continue to once he makes you cold" he said. "You're strength is capturing the heart of mankind and your weakness is not knowing how to let others take the blame, you are hard on yourself and shouldnt always be, people take advantage of you. I am guilty of that, so is Edward." he said. He kissed her cheek. "But your one stubborn strong woman" he said "You kill me Bella, you kill me" he said with a smile "That's why I love you."
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Post by Edward Cullen on Apr 1, 2008 0:08:39 GMT -4
If I could dream at all, it would be about you And I'm not ashamed of it [/i] [/color][/center] Funny things, dreams. Not even the brightest scientists can understand where they come from, nor can they truly grasp their meanings . Some claim them to be images of what’s on your mind, like images of a movie you may have seen that day. Dreams have been recorded through history as being elusive, while offering you great advice if you can grasp the images before they fade from your memory. Could vampires dream? Edward Cullen didn’t think so, considering he had yet to actually dream since he was brought into this world. Every time sleep claimed him, all he was aware of was inky blackness.
The sun was quickly climbing the skies by now, and from the safety of his piano, Edwards' fingers seemed to glide over the black and ebony keys, eyes empty. He felt only a raw gaping hole where his soul used to be, ever since his transformation. He couldn’t live with himself, and hated his very being. He just felt so…alone. He often thought back along that long period of time, when Bella hadn't of been in his life. What a sad life it had been.
It was then, as he felt his heart cease to beat and his mind drift away from reality, that he felt a familiar tug. It was weak, yet there all the same. His heart suddenly thundered within his chest, causing his nostrils to flare, though he lay paralyzed at the piano. Bella… Unable to help himself, he used all his strength to connect to that weakened link, his infused strength seeming to merge with it, until he was swept into another world within his very mind. It was as if he didn’t have to put on an act anymore, and he could actually be…himself. Though he was in a dream, it seemed so vivid and real that Edward couldn’t tell it apart from reality. He literally felt wind upon his face, and heard the sound of it whispering through the trees. He literally caught wind of that one scent that sent stabs of pain through his withered heart-- Bella. And just like that, he saw her.
Her beautiful mane of brown seemed to whisper around her like silk, her fair skin and angelic features making him grieve deeply inside. This couldn’t be real.. But then he saw Jacob Black, with his arms wrapped around her. Almost instantly, Edwards' eyes snapped open, a snarl rumbling through his chest. Whether he wanted to hear them or not, Jacob's thoughts suddenly began to flood his mind. He could almost picture them together....and he flinched away at the mere image. He never understood how Bella could love that filthy dog, but he'd never given it much thought. Regardless, he couldn't help thinking: Is this what she wants? Is Jacob the one Bella longs to be with? Yet, he couldn't help but wonder if what he was hearing was his imagination... A nightmare conjured up in his own paranoid state of mind. Could he be imagining what he was hearing? These thoughts that did not belong to him? Edward wasn't sure, but he was determined to figure it out.
He was running now. Faster than any mortal being could ever imagine. To the human eye, he was barely visible; an impossible blur that zoomed by at the speed of sound. But if you were to look closely, you would see the outline of his black jacket; his locks of red and brown undertones swaying in the breeze formed by his forward momentum. He was running to the forest-- hoping to prove to himself that Bella would never hurt him like that. Or would she? Edward hated himself for even questioning Bella's intentions. But he couldn't help it.
The forest was eerily quiet as Edward moved soundlessly through the trees. He could smell her scent, but it was barely recognizable-- it was covered in the foul stench of werewolf. He snarled at the thought, but it quickly vanished as he peered through the trees. There she was. Practically devouring that useless lump of fur as she wrapped her legs around his waist. His eyes began to sting, a feeling that he had felt so many times before. He felt like ripping his beating heart right out of his chest, and he would have-- except for he had no beating heart. He was neither upset, nor jealous at the sight of them. He was frustrated with himself for never being able to give such pleasure to Bella. Not without pulling back, or wincing at the overpowering urge to drink her blood. Bella and Jacob had no limits. While Bella and him did.
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